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May. 5th, 2010

Bad day after bad day

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Apr. 28th, 2010

I'm a fatass :(

So I managed to munch down 300 calories before 8.
Lovely, I know :(
Sometimes I really don't think I belong here, seeing that I eat so freaken much.
Today I Wednesday meaning that i have ED group meetings. Being forced into 'recovery' sucks balls.
I'm so tired of all this bullshit.
Tbh i just want to die. My suicidal thoughts re back contstantly as if my anti depressants and mood stabilizers have had a reverse effect.
I'm tired off all this crap.
I'm done being fat. I'm done eating.
:(

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Apr. 22nd, 2010

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I DID IT!!!
I reached 140 lbs
Wooo me.
Now 23 lbs to go, hahah :P
Hope everyones having a good day so far <3
xx

Apr. 21st, 2010

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I told my guy friend about my ED and how I'm being forced to go these meetings to get better. What does he say? Don't go, you have a great body!
Ignorant much?

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Apr. 18th, 2010

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Today was a disaster just like yesterday.
:(
Tomorrow however... is NOT going to be.
I will get back into the 130's.
I will be thin.
I will achieve my goals.
I WILL succeed!!!

Apr. 14th, 2010

Pleas do not RePost

My friend is so fucking skinny.
I'm so jealous 24/7.
ughh ><

Apr. 7th, 2010

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I'm done with dairy, and stupid eggs.
I'm such a fucking fatass. Can't even fast for 1 day.
I am going raw food, as of now.
BKAGAHAJSJAJ
fuck food... seriously

Apr. 5th, 2010

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4 lbs down since Friday.
=D
I weighed in at 143 this morning, even though I was forced to eat dinner at my boyfriends last night. I had to eat a bit of mashed potatoes, 3 table spoons of rice, 2 asparagus, and that was it.  His parents already know I eat little, they don't really know that I have an Eating Disorder, as I'm not too thin. His brother teases me,with Calories though (he's 7)' Does this to many calories? Are you scared of being fat' Its like. YES. I just kinda laugh along.
Anyways, I didnt do shit for Easter, didnt even get any Chocolate, which in my opinion is GREAT.
My first GW is 140 by Friday, which at the re\ate that i'm going (1 lb per day), I should achieve by Thursday.

So yeahhh, I think i've talked enough.
How are you Ladies doing?

Apr. 2nd, 2010

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Hello again.
So Ihad about 650 calories today.
All healthy, but still not good :(
i should lose atleast .5 overnight, especially since i had been eating normally for the past week.
Aslong as I'm under 146 I'll be content for now.
Anyways, i got bored today and made a new icon.
I edited a picture i took a while ago, and yeah :)
Hope you like it
xxx

Mar. 21st, 2010

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Today was OK.
I had about 500 calories.
Meh, still better then the days before that,
I might go to bed soon, just to not ruin the day.
Its only 7 40.
>.< erghh.
Can't wait for this day to be over.
I just said fuck you to my mom.
Because she was spazzing over 1 dirty dish.
Fuck, atleast I ate.
>.<

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